I guess it's only fair to post on a good day, as well as a bad one!
Today is my last day off work, but i'm in a decent mood. Sat down, playing xbox, and all is well.
Nice.
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
Sunday, 15 March 2009
Lower
Feeling so low, almost without hope.
Need friendship, reassurance, positivity.
But, I have none.
I don't know how long I can survive like this.
Need friendship, reassurance, positivity.
But, I have none.
I don't know how long I can survive like this.
Friday, 13 March 2009
this is NOT an apology
I would like to say I'm sorry, but how can I be sorry for something which is a part of who I am?
Please look at this from my point of view.
I have ALWAYS been there for you. Answering calls at any time of day, being there for you, giving you time, money, advice and support whenever you've needed it. All I'm asking for is simple: The same in return. However, because you find yourself otherwise preoccupied, I am no longer worth having as a simple friend?. I know this may not make "him" happy, but if you cared about me as much as you said you did, then you would defend me, and explain to him what a good and important friend I've been to you. But NOT EVEN defending me enough to add me on Facebook? It makes me feel worthless.
Feeling worthless, on top of all my other severe depressed feelings pushes me into absolute despair.
I respect that you are seeing how things go. But, I am a long term, close and valuable friend. If he can't accept that we must at least keep in touch, then he does not respect you enough to have your own mind. I don't know why you have suddenly abandoned me at a time when I needed you most. But, I am surprised you value me so little that you can't even tell your new bloke to accept that friends are an important part of your life and you won't give them up for him.
I cannot handle rejection, and being ignored.
Please look at this from my point of view.
I have ALWAYS been there for you. Answering calls at any time of day, being there for you, giving you time, money, advice and support whenever you've needed it. All I'm asking for is simple: The same in return. However, because you find yourself otherwise preoccupied, I am no longer worth having as a simple friend?. I know this may not make "him" happy, but if you cared about me as much as you said you did, then you would defend me, and explain to him what a good and important friend I've been to you. But NOT EVEN defending me enough to add me on Facebook? It makes me feel worthless.
Feeling worthless, on top of all my other severe depressed feelings pushes me into absolute despair.
I respect that you are seeing how things go. But, I am a long term, close and valuable friend. If he can't accept that we must at least keep in touch, then he does not respect you enough to have your own mind. I don't know why you have suddenly abandoned me at a time when I needed you most. But, I am surprised you value me so little that you can't even tell your new bloke to accept that friends are an important part of your life and you won't give them up for him.
I cannot handle rejection, and being ignored.
Monday, 9 March 2009
Exam stress
At 10am tomorrow morning, I will be sitting the sergeant's exam.
Not as prepared as I could be, but I *can* pass.
Nevertheless, my mind is a bit elsewhere with a good friend no longer wanting to be a friend as she now has a man in her life. I don't mind rejection, but for someone who says they care to suddenly not give a toss is a bit much to take.
Oh well. Exams, exams, exams...
Not as prepared as I could be, but I *can* pass.
Nevertheless, my mind is a bit elsewhere with a good friend no longer wanting to be a friend as she now has a man in her life. I don't mind rejection, but for someone who says they care to suddenly not give a toss is a bit much to take.
Oh well. Exams, exams, exams...
Sunday, 8 March 2009
Super-depressed
Ironic how the word super can precede a word, and actually make it worse!
Oh, I'm rambling, yes.
Very down today, due to losing a friend who cares not.
Doubled up on the Prozac, so will live. For now.
Oh, I'm rambling, yes.
Very down today, due to losing a friend who cares not.
Doubled up on the Prozac, so will live. For now.
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