this is NOT an apology

I would like to say I'm sorry, but how can I be sorry for something which is a part of who I am?
Please look at this from my point of view.

I have ALWAYS been there for you. Answering calls at any time of day, being there for you, giving you time, money, advice and support whenever you've needed it. All I'm asking for is simple: The same in return. However, because you find yourself otherwise preoccupied, I am no longer worth having as a simple friend?. I know this may not make "him" happy, but if you cared about me as much as you said you did, then you would defend me, and explain to him what a good and important friend I've been to you. But NOT EVEN defending me enough to add me on Facebook? It makes me feel worthless.

Feeling worthless, on top of all my other severe depressed feelings pushes me into absolute despair.

I respect that you are seeing how things go. But, I am a long term, close and valuable friend. If he can't accept that we must at least keep in touch, then he does not respect you enough to have your own mind. I don't know why you have suddenly abandoned me at a time when I needed you most. But, I am surprised you value me so little that you can't even tell your new bloke to accept that friends are an important part of your life and you won't give them up for him.

I cannot handle rejection, and being ignored.